Many of you in this room can attest to the fact that I was not living for Christ before I received grace. I told people that I was Christian, and that I was saved, but deep down I knew I wasn’t. I lied just to lie, and I stole, and I was an all around sinful person. If I had a problem, it was God’s fault and there were several times where I doubted that He existed. To me, it didn’t make sense that everyone said that there was a God that was so good when bad things were still happening. And so, by blaming my sins and transgressions on Him, and those who believe in Him, I didn’t feel guilty, and I continued to be a bad person.
I called people horrible names, and I got angry so easily. My main values were starting drama, being in the middle of drama, and being right all the time. Now that I’m saved, I focus more on what will please God, and how what I do will affect people. All of my problems are insignificant in the face of who I’ll meet when I reach heaven.
As I’ve explained, no one liked me, I was made fun of, and I was just a generally lonely and bitter person. Things started to change when I joined the volleyball team. All of the girls were constantly talking about how much they loved church, and they would scold me for saying and doing stuff that was regarded as mean and non-Christian, and I eventually decided that if I went to Church, people would talk to me more. So I talked to everyone, and asked around about which church I should start going to, and one of my teachers reached out and contacted Bro. Jeremy. Now, this is when he was still our youth pastor so I’m gonna tell it like that.
The youth pastors always came to the school one day a week and talked to the kids at the school, and Bro. Jeremy came over and told me that he had been contacted by a teacher of mine and that they would love to have me at the youth group meetings. Arden started bringing me to church every Wednesday, and I started going on Sundays too. One Wednesday everyone was talking about this weekend trip that was going to happen, and I asked if there were any spots open. There was, and so I went on the trip. It was on this trip that I realized that all of these other kids had something that I didn’t, something that I was missing and that I wanted. So during the middle of the sermon that Saturday, I started to pray.
I told God that I wanted him to be a part of my life, and that there was no way I could do it without him, and that was when I got saved. I can never thank God enough, and I am so very grateful for the people that he has put in my life, and the people at this church. Things have really been going up since I got saved, and I know now that anytime I have a problem, all I have to do is ask God for help, and I will receive it. I know that no matter what, I have a God who loves me, and no one can ever take that from me.